Have you ever listened to a song SO perfect that it captures something you didn't even know you needed someone to say to you? And then it's sun in such a hauntingly beautiful way that you put it on repeat and just lie in bed listening to it on repeat. THIS is that song. Just in case you don't trust me, there's a list of the lyrics below.

I have felt like a machine, or  more accurately a test tube, petri dish, toxic waste dump, malfunctioning robot, a collection of physical parts - that aren't working the way they are supposed to. I took this series of pictures when I was feeling exactly that way. Post-chemo. Dizzy, tired, sick and tired of feeling sick and tired. I was lying by the pool with my camera in my hand and I could see my body lying in front of me like a collection of parts. Fake breast, strong working leg, somewhat defiant but currently behaving skin.

I have, in facy been scanned sideways, upside down, cut up inside (by more than words) and even scanned while still being cut up inside. Still there are those moments when my heart overflows. And when they push me back down but I just get up again.

Anyways, just trust me and listen to the song.



Machine
Your heart is more than a machine.
Pumping blood through your body, doing things you've never seen.
Their words come like arrows when they fly.
With mechanical precision they can cut you up inside.
But you're more than bolts.
Like the city's more than steel and stone.
Soon your heart is gonna overflow.
They push you back down you get up again.
Circuits freeze and androids never dream.
You're more than a machine.
Touchscreens.
Fingertips and pretty lights.
We go through the scanner sideways.
See you on the other side.
Your flesh.
All your skin and all your bones.
Carry all our generations.
With the future still unknown.
But you're more than bolts.
Like the city's more than steel and stone.
Soon your heart is gonna overflow.
They push you back down you get up again.
Circuits freeze and androids never dream.
You're more than a machine.
But you're more than bolts.
Like the city's more than steel and stone.
Soon your heart is gonna overflow.
They push you back down you get up again.
Circuits freeze and androids never dream.
You're more than a machine.
Songwriters: Scott Helman / Ron Lopata / Thomas Salter / Simon Wilcox
Machine lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC, Peermusic Publishing