Seeing the beauty in the absurd...




I've been struggling for a long time to put into words the complex way that illness makes me feel. It's horrible, challenging, humiliating but that's not all it is. It has it's moments of beauty. Of humor. It teaches me things that I might not have learned. The joys are sharper, more poignant, but they aren't gone. It's a new reality, one I still don't truly understand, but which I'm trying with every creative tool in my arsenal to express. So when I need it, or forget it's there, I have a resouce I can turn to remind me that it won't always be like this, and if it is, I'll be OK with that too.

Photography is a new medium to me. It's only been a few years since I picked up a camera with the intention of doing more than just to point and shoot. I've worked on capturing basic images, then complex images, then images that I hope tell a story about my life. That goes along with the words I'm creating. I've tried to share the other creative outlets - most recently poetry - and now I want to share some of these images with you. They capture a juxtaposition of a reality of sickness - injections, forced bed rest, isolation, togetherness. I have started to share them already on my instagram.

I'm sure there will be more on this blog. If you want to follow along.

I'm still not sure I completely understand my compulsion to capture and share this experience, but sometimes I see beauty through the camera, or through the way writing things down helps me process, that I'm not sure I could have if this process was something that happened only in my head.

So thank you for being on this journey with me.
xo Dena